Because I know myself best, for exemplification I decided to review my own artworks from different periods.

Psychological background By nature I was a lefthander, but in years of infancy I reformed myself to a right hander. My ability was a bit higher than average, I studied without difficulty, though appreciated more subjects written, but not oral, because I has a habit to think long. At secondary school mathematics came well, other pupils copied my home works every morning. I passed over 100 exams, worked hard and too hard without remuneration all my life, suffered many severe stresses, met not a few sticky human beings.

This notwithstanding I never crossed a boundary after that insanity is, never took interest in homosexual relations, always was free of alcohol or drug dependence, never had any symptoms of criminality.

In 1979 one teacher of painting, who himself had his own psychotic problems, even sent me to psychiatrist for test my mental health. After interrogation a psychiatrist said: "You are absolutely normal and no needs to come here more".

Reasons of some hardly explicable occurrences of my life

1. Before the end of mathematic studies I left university, found a job in distance over 100 km and started to study drawing and painting, in the most part by myself. I can explain this romantic step in such way: in 1975 a work in tremendous rattled computation centre seemed to me ugly and boring enough, and I decided to change work. Stimulus was that painting's professor of aesthetics section of university noticed my talent in drawing. Without any doubts I started this new subject. In these years arts were most prestigious among other sessions. In atheistic state like the Soviet Union art had a function of religion, moral education and enchantment. The best pupils chose career of artist. I successfully became a student of Vilnius art academy, though can not say that work system in academy was and is perfect enough.
2. I met tens of sticky human beings who did for me a lot of evil. The reasons are these: I was too confiding, warm-hearted, always busy with my painting and theories, and alone. I was ready to help for everyone who asked. Now I endeavor to be care and do not permit to trespass on my kindness.
3. In 1995-96 about half year I lived without sleep, because under window all nights cars drove and burglar-alarms racketed, I had a tremendous learning load and have to be in a room with objectionable persons. After this for some time I felt memory's disarray. After change of residence this symptom disappeared.
4. I am alone, because did not meet a right man, because have too many work. I do not like very much to be among friends, because they eat time and energy. I have poor herd's instinct. Loneliness of talented individual differs from loneliness of madman by their purposes. Looking for friends and their advises show spiritual weakness. Consolidation with other people into parties shows individual's weakness too.
5. I sold little number of my pictures. This is that I always seek ways to perfection and do not think about my done works too much. I always direct my attention to better change and to the future. I do not think like some researches that only working for market shows good mental health. At first, if you concentrates on insinuation to client, possibility of kitsch exists what is not positive. At second, we know that a lot of severe mental patients and criminals, even serial killers, work for sale and sell their artworks even successfully. On the other part, Rembrandt was not a businessman, though his artworks have no signs of insanity. At third, some researches who overrate art commerce forget about honesty, truth, honor. A good name is more valued than money.
6. I drew a few cartoons that by their expression can be called outsider's. I had a purpose to create effective and powerful expression and I reach result consciously using some technical means based on analysis of outsiders. I do not look at these my cartoons in real earnest.

Thus the hard occurrences in my life are logically explicable and substantiated. Opinion of psychiatrist's, who in 1979 affirmed my good mental health, is validated also by the simplest analysis of my works of art of different periods seen below.

Fig. 1. Jurate Macnoriute, Still life, 1976, oil on paper.

Though this very early my painting is soft and the things stood plumb, their weight appreciable clearly, balance of verticals and horizontals is evident. Upside-downed picture's objects clearly pulled to upwards, to ground (Fig. 2). Laid laterally still life's things keep weights traction to the left in Fig. 3 and to the right in Fig. 4.

Compositional arrangement and colors harmonic, soft, stabile, space close, unity of opposites clear, naturalness, euphoria, clearness, sublimity, masses, no strangeness, no childlike appearance, etc are the features characteristic for both this picture and art of normal people. Conclusion -- the painter, that is I, was a mentally healthy individual.

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Fig.8. Jurate Macnoriute, 2000. This landscape I painted strongly using the golden section. The things are easier as usually, and some rise upwards is noticeable though personally for me materiality of things is most characteristic than weightlessness. From this fellows that domination of the golden section is a condition for appearance of the rise and anti-weight.

I seldom apply the golden section for painting, because its instability is not reasonable enough for me.

In 1994-95 I rendered for Vilnius art academy professors a suggestion of use of the golden section in painting, but in reality, for good and together bad mistake, I used then not exact the golden section, but contiguous to it. That is why in some time I was delighted with it. About mismatch of the golden section and about its approximate use mentioned also Russian film director Sergei Eisenstein.

Fig.9. Jurate Macnoriute, 2000. The effect of rising is affirmed with upside-downed picture. We can see that things are less stabile as they are in other my pictures. The white stones slightly fall down, other areas too.

Fig.10. Jurate Macnoriute, 2001. For comparison I added this my landscape done not using the golden section. Even wind is depicted and trees with bushes are alive, but their weight downwards evidently seen.

Fig.11. Jurate Macnoriute, 2001. Upside-downed this picture is contrast for Fig. 9 with the golden section. Any fall we can not see here.