Hidden Feelings
Chapter 2

Hi, I'm back for chapter II!!!!! I know it's been a long time since the first chapter, but I got sooo many things to do at school. Gomen…L But I'm free at last!!!!! So, please e-mail me for comments, questions, critics, suggestions, or ANYTHING at krystal1314@yahoo.com. Thanks, Lisa S. and Winnie Khaw (which by the way I think your e-mail address isn't working), and other people for commenting me about the first chapter. You have NO idea how much it meant to me … And correction from the first chapter, they are NOT in Tomoeda Elementary School, they are in Seijo High School, gomen… Here we go…^_^

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Where am I??? Why is it so dark? What is this scary place?? Huh… who's that?!?!? Wait, come back and wait for me! Please come back… The figure turns around, that face…that familiar face…that dark hair…, that serious deep brown eyes…, who are you?? (Gasp…) Syaoran??? Is that you, Li-kun?? WAIT, don't walk away from me, where are you going?? No, don't leave me alone here!!! SYAORAN………!!!

“NO!! COME BACK!!! SYAO… huh?!?!”

Sakura wakes up in her dark bedroom in shock.

Wait…was that…a dream??? What does that dream mean?? Why did I dream of him…again?? Why did Syaoran leave me there?? And why did…baka, baka, baka…it's only a dream, Sakura!! (Sigh…)What time is it now?? It's only 6?? Well, I might as well wake up and prepare breakfast…

Sakura stands up from her bed and heads to the bathroom, while one thing is in her mind, Syaoran…

“Well well well, I never thought that kaijuu could wake up in the morning and prepare breakfast”

Touya grins when he sees his lovely little sister busy in the kitchen preparing food. After all, it was supposed to be his job, not hers.

“Sakura is not a monster”

Sakura turns around and gives him a mean look, while Touya burst out laughing.

“Well, imouto, what are you doing this early?? Preparing breakfast or brewing poison for me??”

“Mou, Oni-chan, I'm making breakfast AND lunch for you and Otou-san, could you at least thank me for it?!?!?! Look, I even made a special omelet today because I had time!”

Sakura grows impatient and Touya can see that her little sister has worked hard making his lunch that was ready on the kitchen counter.

“Gomen, gomen… Sakura… it's early in the morning, and you're still supposed to be sleeping in your bedroom. This is my job, you don't have to do this…”

Touya feels guilty now that he had teased his beloved little sister.

“Well…, I woke up too early, and I couldn't go back to sleep, so, I figured why not do this? I mean, I don't have anything else to do…”

“Arigatou, Sakura, but don't you have that Math test today??? You should study hard for it since last night you wandered around doing God-knows-what and came back late…”

Sakura realizes that she only browsed through her book last night after Syaoran gave it to her because she was tired when she got home, and fell asleep afterwards into that disturbing dream…

“HOE…!!!!! Oni-chan, you should've told me sooner!!”

Sakura runs upstairs, leaving all her mess behind, while Touya just standing there, not knowing what to do with all the mess in the kitchen.

“Ehh…??” Touya shrugs.

“Ohayou, Sakura-chan, are you ready for the test today??”

Tomoyo smiles at her when she sees Sakura walks into the crowded classroom.

“Ohayou Tomoyo-chan, if it wasn't for Oni-chan, I would've forgotten about this test today!! And if it wasn't for Li-kun… I wouldn't be able to study at all…”

Sakura looks around to see whether Syaoran is there or not.

Ohhh…he's not here yet…I wonder why…

“Why, Sakura-chan?” Tomoyo asks behind her. “Huh?? Why what??”

Sakura just came back from her thoughts of Li, but still… searching for Syaoran in the crowded classroom.

“What about Li-kun… you know what? Never mind… Sakura”

“Gomen Tomoyo… I just had a very exhausting day yesterday…”

Sakura sighs when she still can't find Syaoran in the classroom…until someone walks into the classroom with another person, following him, or rather… holding his hands tightly… Meiling of course…

“Ohayou-gozaimasu everyone!!”

Meiling yells loudly to the class and Sakura looks towards the door. Syaoran looks toward her… their eyes meet for a second, but then they part… Sakura can't keep her eyes off Meiling hands, which are grasping Syaoran's hands tightly.

“Ohayou… Li-kun”

Sakura tries to hide her blushing face while saying good morning to Syaoran.

“O..oo..hayou Sakura…”

Syaoran pulls his hands out of Meiling's hands because he notices the blush on Sakura's face.

“HEY!!!”

Meiling protests, but Syaoran doesn't look back at her.

Aarrgghh… baka, baka, baka…why didn't I pull my hands of off hers BEFORE I get into this classroom??? I tried several times on my way here… but Meiling is…arrggh… I don't even want to think about it.

Syaoran blames himself as he approaches his desk, behind Sakura's desk.

“Wait for me Syaoran!!!”

Meiling screams at him, but Syaoran's mind is somewhere else.

I need to talk to Sakura… I need to tell her that I don't hate her. Why in the world does she think that I hate her?!?!?! I mean, out of all people… me??? I actually… care for her… a LOT…

“Syaoran?!?! Are you okay?? I was wondering if we could walk home together after school is over today. I'll wait for you in the locker room.”

Meiling distracts him from his thoughts.

“No, Meiling, I have soccer practice, and you KNOW that…”

Syaoran shrugs and still feels uncomfortable about the situation.

“Oh… okay… I'll make you some dinner then…”

Meiling is kind of disappointed, but still tries to talk to him.

What is Shaoran thinking of?? I bet is that girl… Sakura… I better have a little chat with her…”

“Ikimashou, Tomoyo-chan, are you ready to walk home?”

Sakura turns around to her best friend as she packs her books.

“Oohhh… Gomen nasai, Sakura-chan, I can't today. I have choir practice because the concert's getting closer, and I still have to work on my solo part. Gomen… I forgot to tell you this morning…”

“Daijobu Tomoyo-chan, then, I'll see you tomorrow…”

Sakura finally walks home alone until Meiling approaches her from behind.

“KONNICHIWA KINOMOTO-CHAN!!”

Sakura jumps at Meiling high and not to mention, LOUD voice.

“Konnichiwa, Meiling-chan”

Sakura smiles at Meiling while Meiling is working her little game that she's been planning all along on Sakura.

Aha! PERFECT!! She's alone…

“So… Sakura… I know that we haven't had a talk in a looong time, you know since you became the Clow Mistress and all, so, why don't we start to get to know each other now?”

Sakura looks confused because she HAD make several efforts to get to know Meiling, even though Meiling always end up blaming her for trying to take Syaoran away from her, but she figures Meiling is making an effort to get to know her.

“Ok… what do you want to talk about, Meiling-chan??”

Sakura looks at Meiling with a warm smile on her face.

“Well… how about… our childhood memories?? Say… who was your first love??”

Sakura gasps at Meiling's unpredictable question.

“My first love?? I…I… haven't felt anything that strong in my whole life, Meiling-chan. Well… at least not that I know of…”

“Oh really?? I'm surprised… because you know what they say… love is blind. I myself didn't know I was in love with Syaoran until he kissed me that day, my very first kiss…in his room…”

Sakura stops for a second, thinks what Meiling had just say, and turns around to face Meiling.

“Sumimasen, what did you say??”

Meiling grins.

“Oh well… you know… it was a misunderstanding at first. The day before he kissed me, I saw him talking to this girl, whom I thought was his girlfriend, but she turned out to be a girl he helped on his way home. She fell in the middle of the street, a car was roaming toward her, and Syaoran pushed her out of the street. They were okay, not a scratch on either of them, but then the girl hugged him and kissed his cheek before she left, and silly me… I thought they were…you know, a couple… and at that moment, my friend… I realized that I was in love with Li Syaoran all the time we've been together!! The moment when I realized that I want him sooo badly, when I realized that I DON'T want him to be with any other girl BUT me. I mean… I never thought of him that way before… Even though, I've always had these tiny little feelings toward him before that, you know… the feelings when you always want to be around him, when your face turns red whenever you see him, blah blah blah. BUT… the next day, when I was crying, he explained everything to me and then he kissed me and told me that he loves me…and then he runs his hand…”

Meiling keeps talking, but Sakura's heart beats faster and faster after she heard what Meiling said about her and Li. She feels like a knife just rips her heart out and everything around her starts spinning.

Li loves Meiling??? I'm supposed to be HAPPY for them, but why do I feel like this??? Like I've lost Li forever and he's never coming back to me!?!?!? Wait… why do I even feel like this at all?? Yes, they look good together and I've never liked Li! I've never…never…I…I…

Tears are coming down on Sakura's face and Meiling stops talking for a second. She looks at Sakura's face and realizes that her plan is working. She puts on her saddest face and pretends to calm her down.

“Sakura-chan… are you okay??? Why are you cr..”

“I'm really really sorry, Meiling-chan, but I've… I've gotta be home by now…”

Sakura runs away from Meiling, feeling the cold wind on her face, still crying… without even looking back…

He…he…he…it worked!!!! I never thought that it would work THAT well. Oh boy… she really is a sucker for made-up stories…

Meiling walks home with victory on her side… or so she thinks…

I can't believe…I can't believe it…!!! Why did I cry after that story she told me!?!? I thought we were friends, and I HAVE to be happy when my friend finds her true love…Yes, Meiling found Li…Li is her true love…my true love…

Sakura stops for a moment and she feels the soreness of her legs because she had run for miles and she doesn't even know it. She starts thinking about what she just thought…

MY true love??? Is that what I just thought about?? Li??? My true love???

Sakura gasps as she feels ALL her memories with Syaoran come flashing-back before her own eyes. She remembers the time when Syaoran worried about her when she's sick… The time when they went to the Tsukimene Festival together… The time when Syaoran protects her from the dangers of the Clow cards… And the time when she was sad because Yukito told her that he loves somebody else, and afterwards… Syaoran hugged her and told her that someday… she WILL find a person that she truly loves… And at that moment, she realizes that the person that she truly loves the most is…

Li Syaoran…I've loved him since…since…a long time ago… and I didn't even realize it… Li Syaoran is the person that I love the most!! Syaoran…

Sakura can feel that her face is warm now even though it's cold outside and it's starting to rain.

I love Syaoran…but…but…that doesn't matter because he loves…Meiling…

Again, she feels a knife ripping her heart on her chest. She then walks slowly toward the park where Syaoran hugged her…without even realizing the rain and the people that are worried about her because she's not home by that time.

It doesn't matter… right??? Li will never love me… he loves Meiling… Meiling-chan…I wish I am the one he loves…after all these times… and I just realized it NOW??? Baka baka baka!!! Well…it's too late now…all I can do is embrace all the memories that we had together and be happy for them…

Sakura starts crying again while she's sitting on the swing, in the park in the pouring rain, at the same spot where Syaoran told her that she will find her true love…

TO BE CONTINUED...

Translations:
Baka-stupid
Sumisasen-Excuse me
Gomen nasai-sorry
Daijobu- that's all right
Imouto-little sister

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(Sob…sob…)I know… it's really sad… but it will get better in the next chapter… I promise >^^<

Coming up in Chapter III: For you all, Sakura & Syaoran fans, you will be HAPPY reading the next chapter… I don't want to give out any hints… but I'm SURE you'll like what's gonna happen in this chapter… Ahhhh… I can't wait myself, lol J